I wouldn't really consider myself an anxious person. Not that I never have a case of the jitters over an interview or some kind of big event, but nothing long lasting. I tend to take the attitude that worrying obsessively over a particularly situation or scenario doesn't do you much good. You are better off trying to actually do something positive with your energy, hopefully helping the situation, instead. That being said, I think I am suffering from some moderate anxiety related to the arrival of Baby #2 that I just can't seem to shake.
One would think that I would have less anxiety seeing that I already have a kid and have done all this before. I don't even really don't recall feeling this way when I was pregnant before. Maybe because, even though it was all unknown territory, back then I felt like I could handle one little baby. Now it's no longer one-on-on. These little munkins are ganging up on me! I find myself thinking at varies points throughout the day, "what would I do if the baby was here right now?" Worst of all, I don't feel like there's much I go actually "do" to be productive in preparing for this change. I am cleaning out, finishing up weird projects, working on some potty time with Riesling, and stock piling crockpot recipes. I really know deep down that everything will be fine. It might be hectic for awhile but we will adjust and settle into a new routine, just like we did after Riesling arrived. I just hate harboring this feeling. I have some other current stressors, like a major babysitting crisis, that I'm hoping get resolved soon, lightening my mental load and my cortisol levels. In the mean time I guess I just have to hit the yoga mat a little more often.
I wonder if it's a common thing among other mothers to be more anxious for a second or third child?
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